Addiction

Iā€™m looking for distraction 
to take my mind away from this 
to stop the chain reaction 
my downward spiral 
you'd think I was a gemini 
with such a civil war inside 
no matter which side wins 
you know I'm gonna lose 

and so you went away 
I long for yesterday 
and so you went away 
when will this go away 

facing my own addiction 
to a complete self sabotage 
changing my disposition 
listening to myself for once 
and I have nothing left to say 
and so many ways to say it 
no wonder that I 
just can't shut up anymore